Me & ex boyfriend 5th Anniversary

Tomorrow on 2/12/2010 my ex boyfriend (Mr.Andy) and I will have been married for five years. We’ve been together for eight years total.

That’s more than a quarter of my life. Wow!

My life has changed in so many ways since and because Mr. Andy and I are married. I watch PGA Tour games now. I cheer for the golfers. I know the names of the Golf Course and the price too (this is so booooooooooooooooooo!). I know which is Lin Danand which is Chong Wei (buta sukan!) I ate Tempoyak and ikan sungai, I know about Ventolin inhaler, there are little things too, like we bought houses and have Raeez and Amna the greatest achievement ever!

Mr. Andy and I disagree, and we do fight sometimes, and when we fight we really really fight! But Mr. Andy makes me laugh. All the time. At stupid things like radio commercial, the sales girl, the special gift etc. We like to imagine weird things too (it’s ok i keep it secret Mr. Andy). We are very different, but we can always make each other laugh, and I think we’ll always have that.

I just hope that me and Mr.Andy will be in love forever, and may enter the Jannah together as he always said “kalau sebab awak abang masuk neraka siap awak!” huhuhuhu i just dont wanna be a good mother i wanna be a good wife too........

Knowing you will be with me in all my tomorrows, makes my today so wonderful.

P/S : maybe I’ll write a romantic post “gunung sanggup kudaki lautan sanggup ku renangi at our 10^th anniversary”

P/S : I LOVE YOU!

Ramadhan 1431 hari ke 15....

Semalam di Bazar Ramadhan aku memberikan raeez beberapa ringgit untuk diberikankan kepada orang2 kurang upaya yang ada pada hari tu, RM2 yg pertama raeez sedekah pada seorg "atok" buta yang bermain gendang sambil menyanyi "Bila Izrael datang memanggil jasad terbujur di pembaringan"..... dia berjalan dan masih mencari cari untuk siapa lagi diberikan duit yang kuberikan padanya, RM1 diberikan kepada rumah anak yatim (akupum krang pasti) tak sempat membaca tulisannya. kami berjalan berselang membeli beberapa juadah untuk berbuka puasa, sampai di hujung jalan raeez memandang aku kemudian memandang seorang nenek tua bertudung hitam sambil bermain gendang, aku menganggukkan kepala tanda membenarkan dia memberikan beberapa ringgit terakhir yang masih ada di tangan, Raeez kemudianya memasukkan duit itu kedalam tabung duit nenek itu sambil memandang tepat dalam jarat lebih kurang satu jengkal ke dari muka nenek itu sambil berkata " ibu mana mata nenek ibu" aku mulanya diam, takut takut kalau nenek tu terasa hati, dia bertanya lagi "ibu mana mata nenek ibu , nenek tak ada matalah ibu, ibu tengoklah!" suamiku pantas menarik tangan raeez, tapi raeez masih tidak berpuas hati kerana tiada jawapan dari ayah dan ibu. Dia menolak tangan ayahnya lalu pergi lagi pada nenek tadi dan bertanya (dalam jarak yang sangat dekat) "nenek, mana mata nenek" nenek tua itu menjawap " nenek buta cu" raeez yg masih kurang jelas maksud buta terdiam, lalu nenek tua tu berkata lagi "nenek tak ada mata" raeez dengan selamba menjawab "Syian nenek tak ada mata kan ibu. ibu bagilah nenek ni mata kenapa kita bagi duit, bagilah nenek ni mata ibu!" aku sangat buntu, jawapan apalah yang nak bagi pada raeez ni...lalu aku berkata " Raeez ibu tak boleh bagi nenek mata sebab Allah yang bagi manusia mata" Raeez bertanya lagi "Kenapa Allah tak bagi nenek ni mata ibu, Allah tak sayang nenek ni ke?"......"Raeez Allah sayang semua orang cuma Allah tak bagi nenek tu mata supaya ada orang macam raeez (yang ada mata) boleh tolong dia, dan Allah sayang Raeez lebih banyak sebab Raeez bersedekah pada nenek tu...." dia terdiam mungkin berpuas hati dengan jawapan dariku......." Nabi s.a.w. bersabda:Maksudnya: “Siapa yang sanggup mendinding dirinya daripada api neraka walaupun dengan (bersedekah) sebelah buah kurma,maka hendaklah dia lakukan.” (Hadis riwayat Muslim). Semoga satu hari nanti Raeez menjadi anak yang soleh, dan boleh jadi imam besar, penyejuk hati ibu dan ayah.......

The Happy List...

My Happy List! (not in particular order)

1.Raeez Iyaad, Amna Nafeesa, Syaffandi Shahrom
2.The smell of babies
3.Family and Friends
4.Seeing Raeez and Amna growing up
5.Snuggling with my love on
6.Talking and gossiping with my friends my SIL and MIL
7.Mountains
8.Sunshine
9.Hugs
10.Making people Laugh
11.Watching my Favorite movie/TV show
12.Taking pictures
13.Finally eating something that I’ve been eating all days
14.Buying something I deserve
15.Being told that I look beautiful (muntah jika mahu!)
16.Chocolate
17.Green Frog
18.School Mates
19.Facebook
20.Adam Sandler
21.Richard Gear
22.Russsel David
23.Sheila on Tujuh
24.P.Ramlee
25.Rainbows
26.Beauty product
27.Theater
28.Cleanliness
29.Perfumes (on someone else gadis, pakcik makcik, jejaka dan lain2 yang wangi)
30.Wrote a inspiring or stupid or merepek comments on someone else wall
31.Karaoke
32.Oprah Winfrey
33.Having a coworker help me laugh my way into a better mood….(Kerana Kerani!)
34.Bonus
35.Bookstore
36.YouTube
37.Seeing others happy
38.Being good to haters
39.Being able to control my anger
40.Online Shop
41.Kenny Rogers Delivery (this is new!)
42.Sea Food
43.Laksa Johor
44.Zapin
45.Holidays
46.Fairytale
47.Full Moon! (MasyaAllah)
48.ARCian (yes you guys always makes me happy! now, then and forever! Sila terharu!)
49.Going to sleep
50.Big Handbag
51.Big Sunglasses
52.Having a good serious visionary futuristic talk with my Mr. Hubby!
53. Half Cook egg for breakfast
54.Foot Massage….
55.reunion
56.asam pedas mak
57.Durian
58.Bubur Kacang Durian
59.Dancing with Amna and Raeez alone singing Lam sam sam or koko jumbo
60.Story time with niece and nephews!
61.Fresh air
62.Baju Baru
63.That “clean feeling” after shower
64.Hari Raya
65.Sweet Dreams
66.Receiving and giving a gift
67.Having money to spend
68.Pictures frame
69.IKEA
70.Taking my shoes of when its hurts
71.Bubbles
72.Finishing my work
73.Clear blue sky
74.Finally drinking something I’ve being craving all days
75.Love
76.Silly things
77.Jokes (Lawak Gadis particularly)
78.Making people smile
79.Knowing that I’ve achieved something (little things counts!)
80.New comments!

i just realize that there is many things that makes me happy! and maybe there is a lot more that i've being miss off.......i'm sure you have alot too.....stop whinning, complaiingng and moaning because you never know how happy you are! i've share mine what is yours.....

Surat untuk ayah..

written on April 2010 on my FB notes:

Assalammualaikum Ayah,

ila tulis surat ini atas dasar rindu yang besarnya hanya tuhan yang tahu...

ila salah tak pernah menulis atau mengirim apa-apa surat pun pada ayah semasa hayat ayah masih ada,

mungkin ayah tak pernah meminta tapi sebagai anak ila yang harus memberi,

tahukah ayah ila sangat rindu saat, cium tangan ayah setiap kali pergi dan pulang sekolah, setiap kali pergi dan balik mengaji, setiap kali masuk dan keluar rumah, setiap kali pulang ke johor....

ila rindu suara ayah setiap kali ayah bagi salam di telefon, sungguh suara itu amat istimewa...

ayah, ila tahu ila dulu ila selalu buat ayah marah, tapi semakin dewasa ila buktikan pada ayah yang ila akan berubah, dan ila tahu ayah bangga dengan ila.ila tahu setiap kali ayah memaksa kami belajar sebab ayah nak kami melebihi pencapaian ayah, secara jujurnya ayah setiap kali rotan dilibas di badan akibat kedegilan ila, setiap kali ila marahkan ayah, ila dendam, tapi semakin dewasa ila tahu kerana rotan itulah ila jadi ila hari ini...

ketika ayah menengking meninggi suarapada ila di depan orang ramai hanya sebab tidak menunduk ketika melintasi orang yang lebih tua, ila malu tapi ila tahu ayah nak ajarkan ila lebih hormat pada orang tua dan menjadi orang yang lebih baik....ila tahu mungkin ayah bukanya ayah yang mempunyai pekerjaan yang terbaik yang boleh memenuhi kehendak anak-anak ayah dari segi material, tapi ayah ila amat-amat bersyukur sebab bukan kerana materialah ila dapat menikmati kesederhanaan, dan ila tahu sederhana itu indah...nasihat dan ajaran ayah melebihi dari segala harta di dunia ni..... seingat ila ayah tak pernah bagi ila hadiah untuk setiap hari jadi atau kejayaan ila, ila pun tak tahu sama ada ayah ingat ataupun tidak, secara jujurnya ila tak pernah berkecil hati ayah, dan itulah sebabnya ila menjadi orang yang tidak pernah mengharap pada apa-apapun sebagai balasan kasih sayang...sayang tak dinilai dari hadiah dan material kan ayah....kasih dan sayang ayah ada dalam diri ila sampai sekarang ila dapat rasakan ayah..

ayah mungkin apa yang anak2 ayah kecapi hari ni masih bukan yang terbaik, tapi ila harap semua doa ayah pada anak2 ayah tercapai...walaupun ayah tak ada di sini untuk meraikan bersama tapi ila harap apa yang kami cuba buktikan akan membuat ayah tersenyum di sana... di syurga...ila nak ayah tahu yang ila sayang ayah dan ila sangat rindukan ayah...

semoga ayah bersemadi dengan tenang dan bersama orang orang yang beriman...

Al fatihah buat ayah saya - Abd Rahim bin Mohd Janis.....

My Mak's Gems of Wisdom

“Jangan tunjuk budak tu depan cermin nanti dia gagap” it was immediately after this advice I decided to filter most everything of mak wisdom of thought. Did your mum’s tell you not to cut your nails at a nighttime, they never explained to you the reason, but you just can’t do it because they said so and their mum’s (our nenek said so too…). My nenek use to say “anak si esah sorang ni selalu tak nak dengar orang tua cakap” as I always refuse to obey any of her advice.

For a while I avoided mak and nenek advice but one day when my nephew cuts his finger while playing at the broken mirror I realized that there must be a reason behind the do’s and the don’t that been command by them.. When something happen against their commandment the will burst any of us (my siblings) with their enchanted word “kan aku dah kata…….”. Since then mak has come through for me time after time, offering me ‘in’valuable words of wisdom. I have to face the fact that my mak child rearing knowledge has comes from years of hands on experience taking care the eight of us (I always proud of my mak)

Since the basics of raising child haven’t change since 100 years ago. They still sleep (if you are lucky enough….) , they still need food (although sometimes they smash and throw it on the floor), they still need the strive for love (comolot in my case!), they still pee and poo and puke, pick up every little things on the floor (I really meant teeny tiny things like bugs and lima sen coints) and leave you exhausted with worry ( the whole paragraph sound sooooo adventure kan…). So its seems to me that I can benefit from the experience our own mother (mak, umi, ibu, mummy, abu (for amna only)) accumulated.

Listed below is my Mak Gems of motherly thought :-

1. Jangan bawa baby keluar waktu senja nanti demam

2. Jangan tunjuk sangat baby kita ( in any formlah) dlm gambar ke, jalan-jalan . Mak kata nanti nanti baby tu sakit demam sebab selalu dipuji (dimata mata ) orang. (i know this sound sooo apakah! since i upload most of amna and raeez picture at FB and lets people say alallalalallala gerammmmnya)

3. Jangan tegur kalau anak kita debab (simpan dlm hati jek) sebab nanti badan dia susut.

4. Jangan mandikan baby pagi-pagi sangat sebab nanti batuk ( i kinda agree with this)

5. Letak paku atau gunting atau anything yg tajam bawah bantal baby yang masih dalam pantang sebab nanti hantu setan takut.


P/S - Yes my mak and nenek is typical malay. me too....

35 Things i wish/have to do before i turn 35

1. Sponsor Mak, Nenek, Mama(MIL), Ayah(FIL), kak lin pegi Umrah or Haji

2. Learn to read quran with taranum and tajwid

3. 500k of saving accounts (really mean saving account)

4. 5 days 4 nite vacation with my girlfriends - Ronnie, K.ayam, Amoi, K, CT,Mas, Linda, Jieha, Ojie, Ria 5. Climb Kinabalu (its a must)

6. get pregnant with twins

7. Attending Raeez and Amna best Student Award

8. Bake my own cookies

9. make my own rendang, ketupat, jeruk petai and ikan pekasam

10. stop straightened my hair.

11. Lasic surgery or wear a contact lens

13. manage to settle my PTPTN loan.

14. Learn how to belly dance, salsa and tango

15. quit my job

16. write my own blog

17. flat tummy, hot body like Angelina Jolie

18. Drive my own BMW

19. Learn a foreign language

20. have my own childcare center (i love children soo much)

21. get paid and doing nothing

22. Have my own tahfiz centre

23. memorize all the juz 'amma by heart

24.be a good friends of my enemy and haters

25. watch all P. Ramlee film

26. cook with Chef Wan

27. SKII

28. climb moutains with my ARCian

29. sew my own or my lil amna baju kurung

30. make a short movie and post it at youtube

31. have my own DSLR camera and take a good picture

32. performing my 5 time prayer on time

33. love and always in love with Mr. Andy

34. strictly recycle and get green 35. still alive