Confession time....

1. 'm overweight.....
2. i hide some of my friend on facebook....
3. i'm so tired of two faced people....
4. i gossip more now....~this is not good, Mr. Andy once says : "can you just mind your own business z!"
5. I hate skinny jeans. Mostly because I will never have the body to wear them.
6. i hate nasi lemak....
7. mok'ku cafe makes me smell like tuna....
8. i hate my job....
9. i am demotivated....
10. i never watch and have zero interest over twilight....
11. i miss ronnie, amoi, naddu si gila, ayu, mas, ria, zana, jieha and all my gals so much!
12. i wish i can be a fulltime housewife!
13. i ate the whole jar of kuih semprit all by myself....thanks to my SIL....
14. Hearing someone use the words “dowh” or “tak boleh blah” aloud makes me want to punch myself in the ear repeatedly.
15. i think i can sing better than someone i know....hahahahhahahahahhaha...~WTF~
16. i hate IIUM new signage.......
17. i love my ex boyfriend (Mr. Andy) more and more now...
18. don't tell me that petai is gross, I will probably never forgive you for it.I find it horribly rude....
19. i wish i have the kiss-ass skills!
20. anything you need to confess lately?

Ramadhan 1431 hari ke 15....

Semalam di Bazar Ramadhan aku memberikan raeez beberapa ringgit untuk diberikankan kepada orang2 kurang upaya yang ada pada hari tu, RM2 yg pertama raeez sedekah pada seorg "atok" buta yang bermain gendang sambil menyanyi "Bila Izrael datang memanggil jasad terbujur di pembaringan"..... dia berjalan dan masih mencari cari untuk siapa lagi diberikan duit yang kuberikan padanya, RM1 diberikan kepada rumah anak yatim (akupum krang pasti) tak sempat membaca tulisannya. kami berjalan berselang membeli beberapa juadah untuk berbuka puasa, sampai di hujung jalan raeez memandang aku kemudian memandang seorang nenek tua bertudung hitam sambil bermain gendang, aku menganggukkan kepala tanda membenarkan dia memberikan beberapa ringgit terakhir yang masih ada di tangan, Raeez kemudianya memasukkan duit itu kedalam tabung duit nenek itu sambil memandang tepat dalam jarat lebih kurang satu jengkal ke dari muka nenek itu sambil berkata " ibu mana mata nenek ibu" aku mulanya diam, takut takut kalau nenek tu terasa hati, dia bertanya lagi "ibu mana mata nenek ibu , nenek tak ada matalah ibu, ibu tengoklah!" suamiku pantas menarik tangan raeez, tapi raeez masih tidak berpuas hati kerana tiada jawapan dari ayah dan ibu. Dia menolak tangan ayahnya lalu pergi lagi pada nenek tadi dan bertanya (dalam jarak yang sangat dekat) "nenek, mana mata nenek" nenek tua itu menjawap " nenek buta cu" raeez yg masih kurang jelas maksud buta terdiam, lalu nenek tua tu berkata lagi "nenek tak ada mata" raeez dengan selamba menjawab "Syian nenek tak ada mata kan ibu. ibu bagilah nenek ni mata kenapa kita bagi duit, bagilah nenek ni mata ibu!" aku sangat buntu, jawapan apalah yang nak bagi pada raeez ni...lalu aku berkata " Raeez ibu tak boleh bagi nenek mata sebab Allah yang bagi manusia mata" Raeez bertanya lagi "Kenapa Allah tak bagi nenek ni mata ibu, Allah tak sayang nenek ni ke?"......"Raeez Allah sayang semua orang cuma Allah tak bagi nenek tu mata supaya ada orang macam raeez (yang ada mata) boleh tolong dia, dan Allah sayang Raeez lebih banyak sebab Raeez bersedekah pada nenek tu...." dia terdiam mungkin berpuas hati dengan jawapan dariku......." Nabi s.a.w. bersabda:Maksudnya: “Siapa yang sanggup mendinding dirinya daripada api neraka walaupun dengan (bersedekah) sebelah buah kurma,maka hendaklah dia lakukan.” (Hadis riwayat Muslim). Semoga satu hari nanti Raeez menjadi anak yang soleh, dan boleh jadi imam besar, penyejuk hati ibu dan ayah.......

The Happy List...

My Happy List! (not in particular order)

1.Raeez Iyaad, Amna Nafeesa, Syaffandi Shahrom
2.The smell of babies
3.Family and Friends
4.Seeing Raeez and Amna growing up
5.Snuggling with my love on
6.Talking and gossiping with my friends my SIL and MIL
7.Mountains
8.Sunshine
9.Hugs
10.Making people Laugh
11.Watching my Favorite movie/TV show
12.Taking pictures
13.Finally eating something that I’ve been eating all days
14.Buying something I deserve
15.Being told that I look beautiful (muntah jika mahu!)
16.Chocolate
17.Green Frog
18.School Mates
19.Facebook
20.Adam Sandler
21.Richard Gear
22.Russsel David
23.Sheila on Tujuh
24.P.Ramlee
25.Rainbows
26.Beauty product
27.Theater
28.Cleanliness
29.Perfumes (on someone else gadis, pakcik makcik, jejaka dan lain2 yang wangi)
30.Wrote a inspiring or stupid or merepek comments on someone else wall
31.Karaoke
32.Oprah Winfrey
33.Having a coworker help me laugh my way into a better mood….(Kerana Kerani!)
34.Bonus
35.Bookstore
36.YouTube
37.Seeing others happy
38.Being good to haters
39.Being able to control my anger
40.Online Shop
41.Kenny Rogers Delivery (this is new!)
42.Sea Food
43.Laksa Johor
44.Zapin
45.Holidays
46.Fairytale
47.Full Moon! (MasyaAllah)
48.ARCian (yes you guys always makes me happy! now, then and forever! Sila terharu!)
49.Going to sleep
50.Big Handbag
51.Big Sunglasses
52.Having a good serious visionary futuristic talk with my Mr. Hubby!
53. Half Cook egg for breakfast
54.Foot Massage….
55.reunion
56.asam pedas mak
57.Durian
58.Bubur Kacang Durian
59.Dancing with Amna and Raeez alone singing Lam sam sam or koko jumbo
60.Story time with niece and nephews!
61.Fresh air
62.Baju Baru
63.That “clean feeling” after shower
64.Hari Raya
65.Sweet Dreams
66.Receiving and giving a gift
67.Having money to spend
68.Pictures frame
69.IKEA
70.Taking my shoes of when its hurts
71.Bubbles
72.Finishing my work
73.Clear blue sky
74.Finally drinking something I’ve being craving all days
75.Love
76.Silly things
77.Jokes (Lawak Gadis particularly)
78.Making people smile
79.Knowing that I’ve achieved something (little things counts!)
80.New comments!

i just realize that there is many things that makes me happy! and maybe there is a lot more that i've being miss off.......i'm sure you have alot too.....stop whinning, complaiingng and moaning because you never know how happy you are! i've share mine what is yours.....

My Mak Lampir list....

1. Dealing with super selfish irresponsible professional so call senior colleague
2. being responsible for somebody's unfinish work or duty
3. Liar
4. Being chase by kitten :P
5. Dealin with stupid people doing stupid things with stupid reason and stupid stupid ~version sudah insaf~
6. Being call sister Ruzielah sister Ruzielah on Friday, 5.25pm
7. Dealing with parents who questioned about his or her son achievement and blame us for everything
8. having the mee kari spilled on my tudung while heving breakfast.
9. Dealing with two faced and the lick ass and dumb butt people ~version hati sangat panas~
10. Being insulted for wearing BATA and Jukebox......~haha and ha~
11. Falling on the staircase while helping hot sexy girl wearing 6 inch heels....
12. Being the middle of attention!
13. Being weight more than the refrigirator
14. Being judge by haters!
15. Being chase by nenek kebayan, puntianak (version rambut ada daun kering melekat) -mimpi-
16. Being fool by the love one
17. Being red
18. somehow walking in the rain with no umbrella....
19. Being place in a cage with either Anwar Ibrahim or angry gorilla ~the stupid and no more idea version~

People, i guess i'm not suited with the sooo call budak bandar……

1. I am not urbanI think wearing hot pants with high-tops is annoying, not edgy. ~ lagi lagi masa tengok wayang midnite (meremang bulu peha kaki kiri akak)
2. I don’t have an iPhone, and I’m not a high-tech person
3. I speak malay like my mak and nenek... ~most so call town gal cakap melayu sheshausheshau
4. I'm not skinny, and i dont wear skinny jeans...
5. I don’t buy expensive clothes, bags, or shoes because I’m not into it and i spill, split, and lost my things a lot ~sorry syarim~
6. i don’t have Woofer voice…..as you know so call call city gal like attention soo much..."eh you know i ikut my mum pegi London last week, i shop giler banyak, my mum pun sama, heh bila you pakai ipad ni, I pun nak suruh my dad beli, next week we all nak pegi Uganda nak beli iPhone 4G 21 biji…you nak kirim tak? ....blablabla....~noted: with sheshausheshau slang~…… …Volume mengalahkan suara azan subuh! “you ni funny lah bebeh….(sambil gelak macam puntianak)and pintal pintal rambut ala ala seksi……
7. I don’t wear huge glasses (this is optional because i always want to.....
8. I wear baju kurung at work ~cheh tak korporat langsung~
9. I know nothing about the latest hot popular song……~apalah k.ila ni lagi ni popularlah sekarang….~
10. I don’t know how to download movie and never care to download songs online…~sangat IT savvy lah you ni!~

P/S : I LOVE HATERS!

Love is Ibu.....

1. Love is cleaning the stain on the bed sheet, changing the pyjamas, give them ventolin, Zyrtex and Prospan in the middle of the night, then again at 1:00 a.m., 2:00 a.m., 3:00 a.m.
2. Love is putting fish ball on anything as long as they'll eat it!
3. Love knows how to disguise vegetables 30 different ways.
4. Love is reading the same bedtime story for the 999th time.
5. Love is a hug around the knees.
6. Love is buying RM10 durian at every pasar malam
7. Love is watching, knowing, buying Ultraman
8. Love is dukung Amna all the way at Shopping complex
9. Love is not frown through the dirtiest of diapers
10. Love is matching baju kurung for this coming raya
11. Love is the magic kiss that heals all owies
12. Love is a cuddly kid in a blanket sleeper.
13. Love is the first kick, first smile, first laugh, first step, first anything.
14. Love is for all the making up stories in the bathroom…(abang tau x semalam kan ibu jumpa crocodile makan elephant!)
15. Love is carrying them down the stairs to make them comfortable
16. Love is your child pointing to a picture of Sharifah Eja and saying “ni ibu kan”
17. Love is your child sound asleep, any child sound asleep.
18. Love is animal’s stories and animal planet.
19. Love is wearing the stain and smell of puke on your top with pride
20. Love is how to get rid the euuuwww smell with febreez
21. Love is a CalciYum, a Chuppa Cup kiss, a chocolate kiss, any kind of kiss.
22. Love is when Cosmos and Gaia replace Tom Cruise & Richard Gere as your most admired men. Oh Remy Ishak!
23. Love is not worrying about those few extra pounds cuz they make you cuddlier.
24. Love is still eating while Amna puke on the dining table
25. Love is the smell of a baby's neck.
26. Love is hot pants and Ben 10
27. Love is KLCC, tunnel and parking lot
28. Love is twinkle twinkle lil star
29. Love is saying no at the right times when it is easier to say yes.
30. Love is saying yes at the right times when it's easier to say no

Surat untuk ayah..

written on April 2010 on my FB notes:

Assalammualaikum Ayah,

ila tulis surat ini atas dasar rindu yang besarnya hanya tuhan yang tahu...

ila salah tak pernah menulis atau mengirim apa-apa surat pun pada ayah semasa hayat ayah masih ada,

mungkin ayah tak pernah meminta tapi sebagai anak ila yang harus memberi,

tahukah ayah ila sangat rindu saat, cium tangan ayah setiap kali pergi dan pulang sekolah, setiap kali pergi dan balik mengaji, setiap kali masuk dan keluar rumah, setiap kali pulang ke johor....

ila rindu suara ayah setiap kali ayah bagi salam di telefon, sungguh suara itu amat istimewa...

ayah, ila tahu ila dulu ila selalu buat ayah marah, tapi semakin dewasa ila buktikan pada ayah yang ila akan berubah, dan ila tahu ayah bangga dengan ila.ila tahu setiap kali ayah memaksa kami belajar sebab ayah nak kami melebihi pencapaian ayah, secara jujurnya ayah setiap kali rotan dilibas di badan akibat kedegilan ila, setiap kali ila marahkan ayah, ila dendam, tapi semakin dewasa ila tahu kerana rotan itulah ila jadi ila hari ini...

ketika ayah menengking meninggi suarapada ila di depan orang ramai hanya sebab tidak menunduk ketika melintasi orang yang lebih tua, ila malu tapi ila tahu ayah nak ajarkan ila lebih hormat pada orang tua dan menjadi orang yang lebih baik....ila tahu mungkin ayah bukanya ayah yang mempunyai pekerjaan yang terbaik yang boleh memenuhi kehendak anak-anak ayah dari segi material, tapi ayah ila amat-amat bersyukur sebab bukan kerana materialah ila dapat menikmati kesederhanaan, dan ila tahu sederhana itu indah...nasihat dan ajaran ayah melebihi dari segala harta di dunia ni..... seingat ila ayah tak pernah bagi ila hadiah untuk setiap hari jadi atau kejayaan ila, ila pun tak tahu sama ada ayah ingat ataupun tidak, secara jujurnya ila tak pernah berkecil hati ayah, dan itulah sebabnya ila menjadi orang yang tidak pernah mengharap pada apa-apapun sebagai balasan kasih sayang...sayang tak dinilai dari hadiah dan material kan ayah....kasih dan sayang ayah ada dalam diri ila sampai sekarang ila dapat rasakan ayah..

ayah mungkin apa yang anak2 ayah kecapi hari ni masih bukan yang terbaik, tapi ila harap semua doa ayah pada anak2 ayah tercapai...walaupun ayah tak ada di sini untuk meraikan bersama tapi ila harap apa yang kami cuba buktikan akan membuat ayah tersenyum di sana... di syurga...ila nak ayah tahu yang ila sayang ayah dan ila sangat rindukan ayah...

semoga ayah bersemadi dengan tenang dan bersama orang orang yang beriman...

Al fatihah buat ayah saya - Abd Rahim bin Mohd Janis.....